You don't deserve me. But who are they to tell? :)

I went out yesterday with Trisha. We chilled at McDonald's and talked about some stuffs. And I must say, I thought letting some of my concerns out will make me feel better but instead it only made me more miserable. Talking about stuffs only made me realize how much I miss some stuffs in my life. Ugh.

Labels: random, rants

I feel insecure. I feel ugly. I feel dumb. I feel stupid. I feel shitty. I don't feel good about myself anymore. I think I'm trying too hard to be perfect for someone whom I'll never be good enough for.

They say what goes up must come down.

Labels: random

I am happy. At least I'm trying to.

I think I'm the stupidest person ever. I know how it will all go. I know it will end badly. I know I will just crash and burn in the end. I also know that I should really really STOP already but I can't. A LOT of people had already told me that I should move on but how will I do that if I can't let go? I can't move on because I can't let go. I can't let go because I am stupid. I am stupid because of him. Believe me, I tried letting go and I'm trying still. I'm just in too deep and I can't pull myself up anymore. :s

I just feel so alone. No one really understands.

Still awake while everybody else is already sleeping. I am just bothered by a lot of emotions lately. There's a terrible confusion in my head and maybe also in my heart. I feel lost. I feel sad. Sometimes I wonder why I keep on making things too hard for myself. The solutions are fairly easy; however, there is a part of me that stubbornly refuses to put these into actions. I then wonder, Am I a masochist? Am I someone who would rather be miserable than to be blissfully bored? I don't know. I really don't know. I just want every clouds in my life to clear out as soon as possible. I just want to be happy again. Is that too much to ask?

Labels: emo, random

You don't deserve me. But who are they to tell? :)

I went out yesterday with Trisha. We chilled at McDonald's and talked about some stuffs. And I must say, I thought letting some of my concerns out will make me feel better but instead it only made me more miserable. Talking about stuffs only made me realize how much I miss some stuffs in my life. Ugh.

Labels: random, rants

I feel insecure. I feel ugly. I feel dumb. I feel stupid. I feel shitty. I don't feel good about myself anymore. I think I'm trying too hard to be perfect for someone whom I'll never be good enough for.

They say what goes up must come down.

Labels: random

I am happy. At least I'm trying to.

I think I'm the stupidest person ever. I know how it will all go. I know it will end badly. I know I will just crash and burn in the end. I also know that I should really really STOP already but I can't. A LOT of people had already told me that I should move on but how will I do that if I can't let go? I can't move on because I can't let go. I can't let go because I am stupid. I am stupid because of him. Believe me, I tried letting go and I'm trying still. I'm just in too deep and I can't pull myself up anymore. :s

I just feel so alone. No one really understands.

Still awake while everybody else is already sleeping. I am just bothered by a lot of emotions lately. There's a terrible confusion in my head and maybe also in my heart. I feel lost. I feel sad. Sometimes I wonder why I keep on making things too hard for myself. The solutions are fairly easy; however, there is a part of me that stubbornly refuses to put these into actions. I then wonder, Am I a masochist? Am I someone who would rather be miserable than to be blissfully bored? I don't know. I really don't know. I just want every clouds in my life to clear out as soon as possible. I just want to be happy again. Is that too much to ask?

Labels: emo, random